It was the man who had vanished years before, the one I had trained myself to live without. My chest tightened in ways I didn’t expect; memories came unbidden, sharp and hollow. I had built a life in his absence—an existence that required constant vigilance to avoid cracks where grief could seep in. Our children had grown accustomed to a version of him that existed only in old photographs and hesitant stories. I had crafted routines that were meticulous, intentional, meant to erase the chaos he had left behind.
And yet, here he was, standing in the same kitchen I had once imagined cleaning alone for the rest of my life. He looked smaller than I remembered, but his presence filled the room as though it had been waiting for him all along. His eyes, the same green-gray I had once memorized, darted around the kitchen, lingering on the fridge, the counter, the children’s artwork stuck on the wall with mismatched magnets. He swallowed, a motion so small and human that it briefly shattered the wall of anger and disbelief I had built around my heart. I didn’t forgive him—not that night, and perhaps not ever—but I didn’t scream either.