After the divorce, the house felt like a museum built for ghosts. Every object carried a memory, and every memory carried a sharp edge, even the ones that used to feel warm. I had made a list of what to throw away, what to donate, what to keep only because it was practical, and I treated that list like a lifeline. If I stayed organized, if I kept my hands busy, I wouldn’t have to think about the quiet ways I had failed. I told myself Kara had left because love ran out, because resentment replaced patience, because two people can only misunderstand each other for so long before something snaps. That story made sense.
It let me frame the ending as something inevitable and clean, like paperwork signed and stamped. The pillow was near the bottom of the list. Her old pillow. The one she always insisted on keeping, even when the fabric yellowed and the seams grew thin. I picked it up intending to toss it into a bag without a second thought, and that’s when I noticed it felt wrong. Too light, but not in the way worn cotton feels light. It had a strange hollowness mixed with something solid, a quiet resistance that shouldn’t have been there.
