There were moments that made the imbalance painfully clear. I will never forget standing in the doorway of our living room after a sixteen-hour shift, my shoes still damp from a sudden rainstorm, my shoulders aching from lifting patients and carrying textbooks, and hearing my father’s voice heavy with pride as he spoke about my younger brother Deacon’s “bright future.” He was talking about Deacon’s business ideas, his confidence, his potential success. I stood there quietly, holding my worn backpack against my chest, listening as if the words weren’t quietly cutting into me.
At that moment, I was balancing nursing school with two part-time jobs—one overnight at a rehabilitation center, the other waiting tables on weekends. I barely slept. I lived on instant coffee, determination, and the stubborn belief that if I worked hard enough, eventually I would matter too. But in my family, Deacon was the star. He always had been. I was the dependable one—the responsible middle child who filled in gaps without being asked and learned not to expect applause.
Still, I stayed focused. Not because I felt recognized, but because there was something deeper driving me. A promise I had made to myself when I was young: that someday, I would build a life that no one could doubt—least of all me.