The days that followed were not loud or dramatic, and there was no sudden rush of relief the way movies like to promise. Instead, there was a strange stillness that settled over the house, as if the walls themselves were relearning how to breathe. I moved through rooms slowly, touching doorframes, tabletops, the backs of chairs, grounding myself in the reality that I was still here. Each morning, sunlight poured through the windows without fear attached to it, and that alone felt unfamiliar. I slept with my bedroom door closed for the first time in years, not barricaded, not alert, but simply closed.
I made coffee without flinching at footsteps. I showered without listening for movement outside the door. These small freedoms, once invisible, now felt monumental. Grief arrived quietly, too—not only for the violence of that night, but for the years leading up to it, years spent shrinking myself, excusing behavior that should never have been tolerated, convincing myself that endurance was the same as love. I cried for the boy I had raised, for the softness that once lived behind his eyes, and for the version of myself who believed that if she just loved harder, everything could still be saved.