I believed I was prepared for motherhood in the ways people warn you about: the bone-deep exhaustion, the blur of hours spent feeding and rocking, the strange ache of loving something so small and fragile it frightens you. I thought the hospital room would be where my body healed and my heart adjusted to its new shape.
I never imagined that the moment which would fracture my understanding of my own life would arrive quietly, carried in by someone I trusted more than anyone else in the world. My grandfather Edward stepped into the room as softly as he always had, careful not to wake the baby, his presence instantly grounding in a way no medication ever could.
He smelled faintly of cedar and winter air, held a bouquet of daffodils like an offering, and smiled at me with the same warmth he had shown since I was a child curled beside him on Sunday afternoons. He admired my daughter, brushed a finger along her tiny hand, then looked back at me with gentle concern. When he spoke, his voice carried no accusation, only confusion, which somehow made his words hit harder than anger ever could.