I knew long before we left the house that this night would follow the same familiar script it always did, and that certainty settled deep in my chest like a stone I’d been carrying for years. Before I dressed, before I even touched my makeup, I walked into the bedroom closet, knelt in front of the small steel safe tucked behind coats and storage boxes, and placed my debit card inside. I turned the dial slowly, deliberately, listening to each click until it locked. The sound was final, grounding.
It felt like closing a chapter I’d been rereading against my will for far too long. For years, I had played my part flawlessly, arriving at family gatherings with a pleasant smile, knowing full well that when the last toast was raised and the plates cleared, all eyes would turn to me. I was the silent solution, the unspoken answer to every bill, every “unexpected” expense, every grand finale that Ryan’s family seemed to believe simply materialized out of thin air. That evening, as Ryan shouted from the bedroom that we were running late, irritation already sharpening his voice, I felt something different settle into place.